isthiswhatitfeelslike?
moree. itssomuchmore thanthis =)
a new level. breakthrough. a bright future.

Gods words.
Gods word.

and today was my birthday!
i dont think i ve really ever had a better one ^^
THANK YOU SO MUCH GUYS FOR EVERYTHING!!!

really- i feel so blessed! hahahahas
i finally felt like i could flow in the Spirit! so much fresh manna-
so many new revelations! everyday you amaze me Lord!

i finally understand the flowing of the Spirit!
Pastors and Leaders dreaming of a People ready to be on fire for Jesus!
People willing to be different, selfless!
not just an outward change, but leading a life reflecting Christ!
having the same thoughts. Love. Faith. Hope.

realised all along i hated conformity and being of the mould you know?
like i would always be the opposite; just to stand out./
never blend in like the rest; my secret subconscious.
i will change. now i know of a life better than my past, and i know You.
to be bold and confident. loving people, pleasing God.

then i realised the need to flow! more than just clothes or actions;
but thoughts and mindsets! to be part of a DreamTeam-
all prepared to conquer and achieve a common goal!
and what a goal! was so touched when i knew of the Phillipines
missionary trip! had always wanted to be part of something like this-
and now we are- giving a new life to those who want to start anew.
children with a better future. limitless possibilities and a hope to live./
inspite of drugs prostitution crime abusive drunk parents corruption-
fear.
not now. a vision impacting peoples lives. kinda makes life in Spore
seem so blissfully ignorant and paradise-like dont you think?

and yet we still are so wrapped up in our bubble-like insecurities.
me included, im uber stunned. whatareyouthinkinggirl- i have NO right
to be unhappy or upset or petty or selfish or ungracious or cold and rude.

not when i have been so blessed! not just today, but every single moment-
having a life many dream of living.
tertiary education. food. so much food! and clean water? and luxuries.
handphone. computer, tv. comics. moneytospend. piano. and tuition?
electricity. and i have so much to be thankful for- and friends? family, relatives?
dont even get me started!

its flabbergasting.
today i celebrate my 17th birthday.
but really, its now so much more to me than that.

once, i thought birthdays were insignificant, and superficial.
all that candles and cake, greed for presents and attention.
and purposeless parties? hmm. and it happens every year!

so untrue! now i know the real meaning of birthdays!
we celebrate our bithdays because they signify our lives.

every single life has the potential to be different, to impact this
very world in its own unique way!
just think- our very lives can change the world!
i want to leave my footprint on this Earth-making my mark.
i know that footprint might or might not disappear, given time.

but i want it at least to have inspired others.
at the very least to have made a difference in people's lives.